Detox time ?

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the titles seems familiar right with me ? yeayy exactly its because to lose fat! well its been my 3 days of detox today. so far so good but maybe its just an early stage that i always felt so hungry. whatttttt???? but sokay lets wait until i reached my 7days.and today, i start boiled my egg again. so, thats all for today i guess. i need to continue my review about some issue related to discrimination. i haveeeee to submit 2 reports by this wednesday before im going to my short vacay in langkawi. okay bye .

how to be slim ?

Assalamualaikum. and hi.. this evening i skipped my workout. i didnt went to jog. why? lazy for sure. i think bcoz im too fat now. my body not fit at all even just to stand up, took me about 5 minutes just to think of it. and now im still craving for kuey teow goreng mamak at my cafe. haishhh how can ibe slim if i keep being hungry like this??? somebody please appear in my life and warn me, mad at me, guide me to hold my self from eating all the time. or at least stop thinking bout food !hmm i gained loads of weight. more than 10kgs .oh im shook ! whenever i stressed, i need something to eat. no matter what the food is. as long i satisfied, its more than enough... should i buy my dinner tonight ?? but i need to diet however im not ready for it yet ! hmm i dunno lahh.. why i have to struggle so much just to be thin? nahhh im tired.. i already stressed right now. bye

its been a while..

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omaigod i dont know how to express this feeling, its been soooo many years since i updated my blog. currently its 2018 and my last post was on 2013 i bet. actually i just try and error resetting my password of this blog . and ohh! finally i did it. i still blur and n0t used to it. since longgg longg time ago i didnt sahre my thought my day and my life in anywhere. it souly in my heart. its quite distressing. i will try to keep updating my diary in this Toink's Life. i missed it a lot. for sure, i just try to keep my blog sweet and simple bcoz i already forgot how to edit it and lose all the link to add in the widgets.

guess what ! im 22 years old and currently studying in UUM Kedah. i have 2 nieces and 1 nephew. i love them so do they. hahaha my mom got married for the 3rd time. i hope she's been well with her new life partner. my sister amy still currently taking medic in ukm and gonna graduate soo, along and k.fiey as usual working in kl. and not forget k.tiq also work in kl. oh almost not to mention my daddy. he is getting old and retired already. he's doing good (maybe) with his new family. we all doing good ! :) 

my student life? interesting yet challenging. im in senior year which is my 3rd yeard already. gonna graduate next year (2019) around October. ive been thru ups and down. i struggled i cried i smiled. i changed my roommate after been together about 2 years. (been together means friendship okayyyy). i still have many kind friends. dont worry. im doing so damn good with positive pple. my new roommate also good. i just begin my 6th semester. tomorrow gonna be my 3rd week of this semester. urgh more stressful when thinking bout assignment. all of the assignment just stressed me out, hmmmmmmmmmmmm gonna passed out later.

my diet ?? wowwwwwwww i didnt expected that i still gonna talked bout this after so manyyyyyy years. what to do im still obese. i lose weight then i gained it back. seems like we can never be apart. blablabla. i still struggling to achieve my last weight which was 67kg. impressive right! its was 2016. haishhhhhh am i able to be at that stage again? pray for me.

my love??? hahaha we have been together since my primary school when i was form 4 (2012). 6 years and still counting. hope he's the one for me and i wish to not be sick towards each others.


my bff? still aye and always be her. still remember aye? syafini awanis. awanosssss. shes studying in russia right now ..she gonna be a doctor soon ! we keep in touch once in a while since we cant afford to meet frequentlya and busy with our studies.

what else??? still blur and from now on, i will keep updating my daily life in my next next next next post ! chill ,xoxo :D

im back

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dind ding dong..im back after several weeks,a couple months maybe..ergh,ckap melayu jee
dah lame tk prctice nk speaking ni mcm dh trbelit2 plak lidah..so,1st of all nk check blog upidate ..so nothing to think about..
byk bnda yg tlh blaku:

• prubahan dlm khidupan aku dri lower rajin to critical malas..sgt2 m'bmbangkan
• my sister,k.fiey got engaged with her beloved fiance bro yah ler..
• my dad gonna get married tomorrow..hihihi 
• Ramadhan will arrive soon ,this coming wednesday :)
• someone broke my heart..let bygone be bygone..uuu
• admiring someone ,my classmate..honestly 

after several month

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selamat petang semua..
slepas bbrapa blan lmanya aku tk update blog ni rase rindu plak hri ni bukak..
bkan ape,thun ni aku spm lgpun sblum aku tkde laptop..wifi pun tkde..
NOW,dah ade laptop present by along sbb aku dpt score 6a's dlm first pkbs ..so Alhamdulillah :)

sekarang ...
aku tgh brusaha nk struggle utk spm blan 11 nnti..perasaan skarang ni still malas dan kurang rasa dbarannya..
TAPI..perasaan tkut tu mmg ade...especially time ade someone yg remind aku tntang exam n my future life soon..mmg exactly mnkutkan..so now,aku kna start bt preparation utk score the best in exam..


SEDIH..hmm,my BB currently repair sbb dah byk kali rosak a.k.a mampos ..
pdhal bru je beli tp mmg suka je rosak..btul2 mmbebankan.maybe cara aku guna tu yg tk normal mcm org lain guna..so,aku dah repair gna warranty and i have to wait for 2 month+++
skrang tkde msalah sgt pun tkde fon..okay je cuma tdak lg b'kesempatan nk amik gmba la..
hopefully,smpat braya dgn my BB..

That s all for now..soon,In shaa allah,aku update next news :D

back to hometown

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nampaknya hari ni hari last aku kat KL..

malam ni aku akn bertolak ke KB seorang diri..

kalau nak ikutkan hati aku yg tulus mulus ni,aku mmg nk stay kl lg tp dsbbkan skolah da nak buka,

poket pun da kering dan rimas dgn segala hal yg mlanda di sini mmg btul2 bt aku tknak dtg sini lg kot..

tp kalau pkir2,aku rindu jgk dkat KB..rindu dkat ma,ayah,k.tiq czen.kwn2 n smualah yg ade kt kb..

mmg excited sgtkan nak balik rumah sndri dan skaligus khidupan aku sbgai seorang pelajar akn bermula..

sekolah da nak buka so aku kna siapkan homework yg trbengkalai cpat2 lah..

biloa duk kl,duk pkir enjoy je tp kdg2 ade gak rimas dgn sikap tarik tali ttttt..

bla duk kb plak,mesti rimas dgn kerenah org tu dan org ni..mana nak bergilir rumah ..adooooiii

kat mana2 pun msti aku ni ibarat main tarik tali ...

biar je lah ..biarkan masa mnntukan sgalanya..

crying

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now im crying..i miss my hometown,i miss my mom,i miss my stinky pillow,i miss my friends,i miss all in Kb..

suddenly,i was thinking that i've been so cruel to along because i did not treat her nicely..

when i stayed at k.fiey's house for the third time,she like dont want me to stay here because she just thinking that i am a burden to her and i definitely will make her in trouble ..

i wish i can go home as soon as possible..

i dont want to feel this nightmare anymore.i just want to continue my normal life ..

i dont want to make pple feel bad about me and dont want pple to think that im a burden..

hopefully,my mom n my sister,k.tiq will smile when im home,KB..

hopefully everything will get btter than  before..

im sorry for letting along and k.fiey have to take care of me..im just hoping that u both are think that im ur sister.. 

nk cte jgk

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malam ni ade lah nk cye ckit pasal tp tibe2 plak tringat kat statement dlm Al-Hidayah hari tu..

"Janganlah kita sesekali membuka aib sendiri atau membuka aib seseorang "

tp aku disni bkan nye brniat utk mmbuka aib ssorg ,aku just nk luahkan ape yg aku rasa kat dlm blog ni..

aku thu pasti ade org yg akan mmbacanye,kalau tidak sepuluh org yg bce,seorang je kan..

nak buat mcm mna kan,sudah mnjd kbiasaan aku bercerita dan brkongsi dlm blog ni..

aku bru smpai rumah k.fiey dan aku dh bgtahu k.fiey yg aku lapar tp xdiendahkan..

hurm ,nk mrah je rasa..Bodoh !

shameless

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bagi aku,perkara ini amat memalukan dan amat mengecewakan..

malu nak share tpi dgn share sjelah aku dpt tnangkan fikiran aku yg tgh bengang..

aku dan along bergaduh atau bertikam lidah melalu bbm.,.

die amik hati dgn aku sbb aku tk tido rumah dia...kalau nk dpkir pkirkan balik mmg ade salah aku.

salah aku bila aku tdur rmah k.fiey brmnggu mnggu dan tidur rumah dia hnya bbrapa hari..

bnda ni brlaku scra tdak sedar..bla kita dah rasa selesa tnggal dgn org tu,kita akn cpat lupa dgn org lain..

kan?

aku dan along dah gaduh dari mnggu lpas..mcm2 die update pasal aku..

die remove fb ,remo bbm aku...msg mcm2 ..

kurang ajar,jijik mcm2 lah..kdg2 geram jgk kan..

bila prngai die smakin mnjdi2,niat aku untuk tidur rmah die mmg dh tkde..

aku mmg slesa duduk dgn k.fiey sbb k.fiey lbh mmhami aku dan k.fiey lbh brjiwa muda..

along ni tkde lah tua tp die sdikit matured brbanding dgn k.fiey..

alaa paham2 jelah budak2 mcm aku ni mmg lah nk kan remaja yg sekepala dgn dia kann..

so,secara xsedar prkara ni mnmbulkan prbalahan antara aku dan along..

td ,aku bbm along dan aku ckap dkat dia yang aku tkleh nk than dgn situasi ni..

duduk sna tk kena,duduk sini tk kena..sume bnda serba tk kena..

mmg serabut gila..then pnjang lbar lah kitorang bbm..

so aku dh decide,aku nak balik kb next monday..

aku dah xthan main tarik tali mcm ni....

yang merungsingkan 

bnda yg tgh brmain di otak aku skarang ialah,mcm mna aku nak amik beg baju aku yg ade kat rmah alom?

aku taktaw lah samada aku akan balik rumah alom lg atau pun tidak..

aku tktaw lah yg along anggap aku mush atau apa..

hurmm..mmg bnda ni stressful...

Graduation day

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congratulations poh !

mulut adalah racun..

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aku bengang gila..nak marah dan tak puas hati pun ade...kakak aku yg sulung ni mmg slalu bikin panas..

ade je yg tak kena...slalu je nk perasan mcm die the boss bila aku kat tempat die..

tp skarang tak seteruk mcm dulu sbb aku di rumah kak fiey ..

dulu mmg dia tibai aku nak2 je bila ade yg tk puas hati..slalu ckap aku ni mnyusahkan dan slalu igtkan aku yg aku ditempat dia ..so,i have to behave myself..ye ,aku thu aku dtmpat org tp perlu ke seorang kakak melayan adiknya mcm tu?perlukah seorang adik merasa seakan akan seorang tetamu apabila berada di rumah kakak nya sndri?

just now,along marah aku sbb aku tk save code movie malam,,mmg die ade sent aku n um code tu smalam 

top aku tktaw no ape yg aku dpt dan along langsung tk bgtahu aku yg aku perlu save num tu..

dia just diam mcm tu..ltmbahan pulak,aku ni seorang yg suka end chat..so,num tu hilang mc tu jelah..so td die mrah2 aku ..die ckp yg aku ni tk sesuai dbuat baik,aku ni kurang ajar..

nak tergelak pun ade..mmg mulut manusia ni mnyakitkan hati mnusia lain..

tp aku tk rep time die tgh merapu dkat aku..aku dah blh agak reaksi dri 

dia bla aku tnye knp tk save num tu sndri..

shame on u..dah slah sndri nk slahkan org lain pulak.

aku dah mula bosan duduk kat tmpat org yg tk pernah nak mngalu alukan kdatangan aku

aku nak balik Kb...as soon as posibble !

drama of the day

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actually im having toothache right now..i cant eat like usually..
i went to dental clinic last friday with alom and the dentist said that i have to take medicine first and if it still not cure,i have to make neither root treatment or just lost the tooth..
so now,i am follow the order from dentist and the swallow become better..
but it still hurt..hope it will getting well soon..

here i want to share such a dramatic and unforgotten thing which is my sister,kak tiq and her husband was divorce yerterday..i hope kak tiq will stay strong and forget about the evilish man who is destroyed her life..wit the baby that she is pregnant now,i hope kak tiq and her baby will survive like usual..we all supporting u kak tiq..dont be sad because of the stupid and ungrateful guy..
u still have u as ur family.

now the story is about me..from the morning,i only eat the noodle which is maggi..
its not the good food ..if i dont eat maggi,what else i can eat?i feel so hungry ..im starving
and i have to eat to take medicine..
so i hope,kak fiey will bring me to restaurant for dinner and i can have the good meal..

the things which is supposed to be mine is exactly not meant to be mine..

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hye alls..i wanna share some kind of bad news ...

dalam 2 3 hari ni aku ade knal someone yg jus nice bagi aku.a guy yg ade cri2 yg aku nak slama ni..

die pun happy go lucky dan die selalu tgur aku dlm bbm..so malam ni,die ttbe tgur aku n ckap dia suka kawan dgn aku..thats okay la..

tetiba..

aku tukar dp bbm ...gabar aku dgn nurin,my cousin.

laki tadi tibe2 tnye aku pasal nurin..dia macam beria -ia sgt ..mntak pin nurin,aku ckp nurin tk gna bb..

then dia mntak num fon nurin..nmpak sgt die nk ngorat cousin aku kan??

aku tahu dia bkan sape2 bagi aku tp aku mcm trase hati la sgt..aku thu laki tu ade hak nak suka kat spe...

maybe aku ni seorang gadis yg tersgt lah sensitif..thats why aku tk prnah nak okay dgn kputusan org lain..ade je yg tk puas hati..

so,pasal laki td aku ckp dkat die yg aku tkleh nk bg num cousin aku.. 

so ,kesimpulan yg aku blh buat dri kisah mlam ni ialah 

"in the beginning,the guy is showing his love towards me but at last,he finally ask me to introduce the girl who is staying beside me..how pity i am "

knowing someone before loving someone is very useful..

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hello alls !what u doing?at this time,i still not sleep..my eyes still open.

huh !what a bad feeling today ?just now,i was told aqil that he just making me sick with those stupid question like i am 87% change into someone else after met him yesterday..hurm ,i dont mean to hurt him but it happened with unexpected thinking...i could not accept after im seriously shocking met him ...

i do love him before and i do not care how much stupid i am for not thinking about the future when i met him lively..it is so frustrating...i just broke his heart..he was not replying my text after i told him that he just disturbing me with those stupid question but i was not telling him that i do not like him straightly..

he kept telling me that i was completely changed and he told me that i was cheating with him and dont care about him...why he have to be so annoying guy after met me? 

he was dumped me when our first time being together...if it not my mistaken..about two years ago,i've been couple with him and he without reason leaved me...

so now,im not paying what he had done to me but it suddenly happened..

im so sorry..i dont think that i can be with u..

from the bottom of my heart,i am not searching for a guy who have a handsome face,its enough if he have a kind of good looking face which mean ,i still can staring at his face although i know he was ugly but not too ugly..

i really sorry ...i know i am a bad person who is secretly doing bad things and saying bad thing about others...

lets be friend aqil...

:(

new post from me :D

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hey guys !i miss my blog,i miss to share with my bloggy...nowdays i feel happy bcause i just finished my final exam last two weeks...i got something to share here,my pets bokbok and tomtom was dead ..they got unknown disease which is affected their life..i felt so pity bout it..then,i gave my other rabbit miut and koko to  the new guardian which is abeyah..my future bro in law..i hope he will guide and care my pets like i do before..i love them very much...i cant be the good guardian to my own pets..that was so frustrated..

after i complete my final exam,i went to kl and now im here,kuala lumpur..i will staying here for a couple weeks..tonight im gonna sleep at kak fiey's house bcos i've got two nbight spend time with alom's house,,and now i feel more comfortable at kak fiey's house..i really hope,i can stay here longer ...

there is another story i would to share,today in the evening i have my first meeting with my Bf which is aqil..kak fiey with me ...i was freaking shocking when met him..i know i could not to have this evil feeling but what can i do..i just a normal human which is always complaining about others ...i was so regret of loving someone wthout knowing first...now, i feel so guilty to him.,.what i have to do? i dont want to break his heart.. :( please help me...i want to tell him nicely..errrr this thing gonaa ruin my day...errr kak fiey told me,i have to treat him like usually..day by day,the time will come.. i hope so...

thats all for today..i wish i can frequently updating my days here..:D

recently..

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hello guys?now im recently not doing good in my studying..its so freaking bad.. my final exam is become near and im not doing my real job as a student..i keep playing with my phone and just take care of my rabbit..bokbok,miut,tomtom and koko...i cant go with my physic subject and also chemistry..i can go with it for now because im not concentrate in the class anymore..im not doing my task ..im not going to school for a few days..hurm now i dont know what will happen to my feature life soon..i am feeling so so sad..i dont want to be a useless person..ohh, i had sold my BB curve because i would like  to buy the new one BB curve 4..

my fight partner,amy is happily enjoying her study in medic at Bandung..soon gonna be a successful doctor..Insyaallah,amin..

i hope my father's case gonna end as soon as possible..pity my dad because he have to facing all the bad rumor bout the past and the case keep postpone for a five year..

thats all for tonight,i hope i can make my self  as a good person and better than before ...i have to focus on my study..i wanna be a good student,good daughter,good girl..
good night,Assalamualaikum..

our assignment...

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      This is my 1st project  with my friends,yeen.qyh,mierah and kumar....im really excited and afraid too because i have to acting like drama in front of my classmates..hihi..that will be so funny if i have to be the queen..my character is to be the queen which is the stepmother of snow white,im the type of evil queen that always tortured my stepdaughter to do a lot of thing..simple say,i treat snow white like a slave..i have my magic mirror which is my adviser..one day,my magic mirror tell me that somebody was fairest than me..so i ask who is it..the mirror said,that was snow white..so,i decided to kill snow white..and.....
just watch the movie ...i just sharing what character i will be .. :) wish me luck !

kenapa agaknya ye...

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aku sdih dan hati masih tertanya kenapa ibu aku tak mahu aku ikut sekali dia keluar dengan amy?
dia suruh aku duduk rumah walhal dia baru lepas ambil aku dari sekolah..ibu aku malu ke nak jalan dengan aku?ke die anggap aku ni semak je?entahlah,malas nk fikir negatif sangat..bulan2 puasa ni kalau ikutkan hati sangat memang takde pahala puasanya tu..

2nd Ramadhan

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alhamdulillah..selesai berbuka puasa hari ini..menu utama hari ini ialah ayam dan kerang percik..mcm best je kan bunyi nya..a'ah mmg best..mkanan tradisi mne tak best nya.. hari aku masih di rumah k.tiq..my mom still tak call suruh pergi rumah dia..so aku tk pergi..malam ni husband k,tiq balik berbuka puase brsama..balik kjap mcm tu lerrrr...okayy ..byeee
selamat menunaikan ibadah terawih..

1st Ramadhan..

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alhamdulillah..selesai sudah berbuka..skali lgi tahun ini,aku berbuka puasa tanpa ibu dan ayahku bersama..hari ini,aku berbuka bersama k.tiq dan amy..ayam pedas,kerabu sotong dan daging goreng dibeli dari bazar mnjadi pilihan kitorang malam ni..baru aku tahu makanan yg dbeli tidak sesedap mkanan yg dmasak oleh ibu ku..malam ni aku tidak berterawih..k.tiq penat dan amy ...
harap2 aku dpt berbuka puasa bersama ayah dan ibu ku..tp aku tahu itu sekadar mimpi yg takkan jadi knyataan..aku bleh pilih salah sorang je..mngikut turn.. :( adoyaii sedih betul hidup ni kan..ayah aku berbuka puasa dgn ape agaknya malam ni eh?? ksian kat ayah aku,dio sorang2 je kat umah..my mom takpe .pak tiri aku ade kb lg..esok bru dia balik kl.so,malam esok aku nk kna balik rumah mom da..Insyaallah,aku akan balik WB.dan berbuka puasa bersama ayah tercinta..